*Sigh*

What more do you want me to do? what more do you want? i've been patient with almost every single thing in life. i've never complain about what is given to me nor am i being picky about wherever im situated to. i know things happen for a reason. that's why i've never question about life. but now i really cannot take it anymore. like i said before. Patience was never a problem. i go thru every single thing with hope and faith and i never lost both of em. i was always patient with everything. now that im in a mess. i really dont even know what to think anymore.

When i thought everything was slowy getting back together.. it got worst.Baby has really been suffering soo much from her mom lately. i really feel damn bad. as much as i love her soo, i dont want her to suffer any burden or pain. In my point of view, being with me is a pain to her. c0z her mom is lyk blaming her for everything that's she's doing wrong to us. as in my relationship with her. WHAT THE HELL! that's soo not true. she's been really trying her best to cope with the 8 subjects that she's having and also the scolding and naggings that she gotta face from her mom. if that is not stressfull enough for one person, i dunno what is. breaking up was never an option in my head. i just wanted the best for the both of us. i've been really trying my best to motivate her and make her happy and all. but lately i've just been a failure. she says she's alright but i know she's not. im really bad at consoling and comforting people. but know this, im really trying my best. but She's suffering.

Im not doing well myself. as in in my head. i've been really thinking about this. if she would just end it there, i would prolly be hard on myself for losing her in such a way. i dont think things will ever be the same to me anymore. the fun times the laughs and all. it wont be the same. limitations are being limited and restricted even more. ARGH! how i hate restrictions. i miss her soo much and how i wish mee being patient about everything soo far is gonna pay off. is happyness and laughther for this relationship of mine really ALOT to ask for?