Where did i go wrong?

this week's wasent that good for me. A little ups and downs. but i barely got throught the whole week.started of with baby heading to karimbun for a school trip with her class on wednesday. And you bet im gonna miss her like crazy. we talked on wed morning and she sounded like she was gonna break down. and me on the other end. i feel like im really gonna miss her like crazy luh. its like three days of no calls and smses from her. yeah. pretty stupid ya might think. but that was what i was thinking. that particular day went skating after school. chemistry test was a breeze soo yea i decided to give myself a short break by going skate with jo and matty.

Headed to yishun park to try the downhill slope and yea took a really bad tumble. scraped my whole left arm and its pretty sore now. with all those bruises and scrapes, but i managed to learn a few other tricks from jo and matty. isnt much but yeaa. went home got cleaned up and washed my arm and yea. i feels like theres a SHARP grip over my entire left arm.

THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU TAKE URE GF'S WORD FRO GRANTED.

mugged like hell after that. there's physics test tmr. soo yea.the next day people were saying that took a really bad tumble from motorcycle. i was like wtf !. and there was malay test that day. and she didnt say earlier. ARGH ! physics test was alright. bet im gonna aced it BOOO ! and i did. 23/25 BOOOOOOOOOO. but chemistry was abit dissapointing. 18/25. walaoweii. social studies test just ended on friday. so im nort sure about it yet. hope i do well. i really did study hard for it you know. x(

baby got back on friday and she told me everything that happen on karimbun and she was like speaking in indon accent all the way there. and got a crush on some instructor there. HAHA. she's hot WHAT. and tons of stuffs she tell me. she trekked on mount jantan. (what a name! i know ! ) and she said she love it alot. but maybe alil problem going up c0z she like tall and she was wearing her lovely blue shoes with dosent have much grip. LOL.

friday wasent the best of days for me luh. had stiff neck the whole day. and my left arm still hurts but its bearable no problem. and and my friends said got break today soo yea. im really messed up. competition coming up. and im nort yet ready. sadly. rahmat and fad are obviously ready. and im super slacking.

thinking what baby said yesterday. Her mom said she's gonna send her to overseas after her O's. i dont have much to say about this. but since its her dream to pursue her doctor career, then by all means go. im nort being sarcastic or whatsoever. know that you'll have all my support. her mom also said that is faster this way. to be honest, im really not sure what to think luh. im just glad i finally found someone who really understands me that well and ure the perfect one baby. but its soo unfair that ure gonna leave soon. ITS UNFAIR !!!. your soo perfect to me. why is this happening? where did i go wrong? everything was soo perfect. my grades are finally improving and i have the perfect girlfriend i've ever wanted. i know its like still soo early to be talking about this but this really need to come out. its evitable to be together for so long yea. like you said i shouldnt really expect much from a relationship. but i really wanna at least enjoy each other company for a long time.like a year or so. maybe im just being greedy. i dont know luh.

history is definately repeating itself. this happened before and i couldnt like forget the girl whom i liked so long ago c0z she had to go to perth to study. it really took me quite awhile to forget her. shessh call me gay. but i really liked that girl. and now that i already have a super lovely girlfriend she have to go too. i really donno what to do or think.well now ure like mad at me,i think for keeping things from you. im not. its just some things that i really need to take time to think. there's alot of things on my mind. so yea. i cant blame you for acting the way you are. c0z its my fault for not telling you what im going through. please take care of ureself. ure not well.

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