Steady feet don't fail me now...

This would be that one of the days where i wonder. How the hell can i juggle so many things with so little time. As you know OKAY you dont. coz i dont say out much. Im back to working and hafta pay for my O level Fees.(most prolly school fees too and my handphone bill) Plus i do gotta juggle with meeting my gf and trying my very best not to make her feel bad when im not around. On top of that, whenever she misses me at work i feel bad. Its OUR crucial year and i dont wanna have any drastic changes as it will definitely affect our studies. Im taking my own time to try to plan everything perfectly so nothing screws up. But if it does. Im in more DEEP SHIT than anyone can ever handle.

I admit. I sometimes AM hard to understand with all the stuffs i have to settle. Honestly, im like robbed of my FUN and PLAYFUL childhood and also teenage years.BUT what the heck. It can also be a way to prepare myself for the REAL WORLD out there. I shall take it optimistically. Tho sometimes i think all this are like TESTING me in a way. The anger that i stored inside for soo long just waiting to come out and is soo SCARY for even myself. I dont one anyone to get hurt. Why do you think, Im always the loner kid at the back of the class studying alone and stays in class everytime to study? I dont have the time to take a break like you fortunate people out there. I wont say my parents are shit. Its just excuses. The REAL SHIT QUESTION is what are you gonna do about it when they are like that? I know myself FIRST HAND that i can never depend on them for things that are important to me. So im just planning ahead, just incase they tried to delay in paying my fees that will soo land me in soo much trouble. They wont know what. They not taking the FREAKING exam. what do THEY know. They dont know how important it is. =/

I guess my ....





Have to wait. SORRY SHAR! :(